Oasis in my desert

I sit in my office and day dream
                   Leave alone the piling work
I wake up to feel you by my side
                   Leave alone the house hold

Crazy in your thoughts, fond memories
                  Picking up the phone to dial and hear your crazy voice
Letting you crawl all over me
                  Those intense hugs/kisses and softness

In my crazy schedule of work
               Machine like routine
Those insane computers
               And the ever long meetings!

What so ever be my state of mind
What so ever things blow up behind
What so ever nuisances come my way
What so ever stinkers hit my way

I rush back home to compensate the hours I missed with you
Those little bruises I didn't attend
Those mild moments when you felt to feel me and I was not around
Those tender feelings that you swallowed in Ayamma's hands
Those small tears that your eyes gathered missing me..

My loving daughter, in those moments I am also burning in a far away place.
Counting hours to come back to you and feel the OASIS OF MY LIFE.






 

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Curd Rice the yardstick of Love!!

Well this is not really about making Curd Rice. Pay closer attention

Scene 1:1999
Mother to Son: Dei Rahul.....Take lunch for school da..

Rahul: Maaa...I will eat our with friends. I cannot eat that silly curd rice every day.

MOM: Dei..........good for health da...Don't eat our parata and waste your health

Sister:
Amma, give that lunch for me maaa...I like to eat that (Thinking paaavam amma, before going to office she makes so much and anna denies to take to school)

Scene 2:2003

 

Sister In Law: Rahul Anna, I made biryani Paneer butter Masala and XYZ. please taste anna...

 

Rahul: Wow Amazing Sister...You have learnt a lot and cooking better than amma...Very tasty.

 

 

Scene 3:2004

Wife: I am late for office, packed your bag. Packed cud rice and sabji. Please don't forget to eat amidst meeting

2005: curd rice
2007: curd rice
2009: curd rice

Scene 4: 2010:
Sister In Law To Mother In law: Listen, last 8 years poor brother gets nothing but curd rice....We have to tell your Daughter In Law to prepare something tasty for him. My poor anna earns so much and all he gets is curd rice for lunch

Mother In Law and Sister In Law to Rahul:

Dei, how do you eat that curd rice every day. Why cant you ask your wife to make something tasty and different.

Rahul: Amma and akka, she gives me curd rice because I Like it, not because She cant cook something else.

If you have time you make something for her differently one day maaa...she likes to have diff stuff to eat.


WELL! Over years the curd rice has remained the same except how it has been perceived by many different people....What touched me in the whole incident it Rahul's response to the whole drama,

None of the actors are at mistake, a curd rice averting young Rahul OR his affectionate sister OR the loving mother. Neither the wife who can only accommodate that in the daily busy routine.

What makes Rahul our Hero is his acceptance and appreciation to what has been given to him or Rab Ne bana di for him...

CURD RICE....could be the answer to "pursuit of happiness" if eaten (err: Taken) in the way it should be !!!

Our past generation leaves behind a heroic trait of acceptance and adoration that is diminishing in this generation genes....Time to activate it and adore what we have all been blessed with...Remember Curd Rice can still be eaten with a silver spoon a Golden Brown Pizza that cant be!

Spice up the Curd Rice with your special garnishing and flavor of life!

Curd rice = Life/Job/Car/spouse/figure/self/beauty and anything that fits in your frame of reference!

You have ravish'd me away by a Power I cannot resist....Falling in Love again with Keats!

Heard melodies and sweet and those unheard are sweeter...and to listen to the unsung between the song is sweetest...

Keats has a way with words more intense and irresistible power than many authors...For the art of writing a love letter I wish he loved many more and wrote many more letters...

My teens was filled with his words in my diaries and after 10 years of Functional specs and technical specs I live through Keat's words dissolving in the sweetness of what he wrote and what I filled in my memories...

Keats....Beyond ages I can fall for your words again and again and again! EVERYONE SHOULD I insist...

John Keats quotes (refreshing today after years!)

 

“Heard melodies are sweet, but those unheard, are sweeter”  
 

“I almost wish we were butterflies and liv'd but three summer days - three such days with you I could fill with more delight than fifty common years could ever contain.”

“Give me books, French wine, fruit, fine weather and a little music played out of doors by somebody I do not know.”  

“I am certain of nothing but the holiness of the Heart's affections and the truth of the Imagination.”  

“A thing of beauty is a joy forever.”  

“Nothing ever becomes real 'til it is experienced.”  

“Touch has a memory.”  

“Heard melodies are sweet, but those unheard are sweeter: therefore, ye soft pipes, play on.”  

“The poetry of the earth is never dead.”  

“The problems of the world cannot possibly be solved by skeptics or cynics whose horizons are limited by the obvious realities. We need men who can dream of things that never were.”  

“Life is but a day:
A fragile dewdrop on its perilious way
From a tree's summit”  

“Beauty is truth, truth beauty,'--that is all

Ye know on earth, and all ye need to know.

- Ode to a Grecian Urn”  

“I am in that temper that if I were under water I would scarcely kick to come to the top.”  

“A thing of beauty is a joy for ever:
Its loveliness increases; it will never
Pass into nothingness; but still will keep
A bower quiet for us, and a sleep
Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing.”  

“I want a brighter word than bright”  

― John Keats

 

Falling in Love again with John Keats....We read fine things but never feel them to the full until we have gone the same steps as the author.”

 

Author here: I am along with John Keats! :)

 

 

 

Kaadal Kallavu Kalvar...

களவு போன பேனா
கிடைத்த போது
களவு போன ஜிமிக்கி
கிடைத்த போது
களவு போன புத்தகம்
கிடைத்த போது
களவு போன கொலுசு
கிடைத்த போது

தேடி தந்த கைகளுக்கு
நன்றி சொன்னேன்
கள்வனை கடிந்தேன்

ஒரு நாள் இதயம் களவு போனது
கள்வர் கலைஞன் ஆக
களவு இனித்தது
காண்பவை கவிதையானது !

களவு போன இதயம்
ஈட்டு தந்தீர்
இதயம் உருமாறி விட்டது
திருப்பி வைத்தும் பொருந்தவில்லை

களவாளி தேடுகிறேன்
களவு குடுக்கவும்  மறுத்து
மறைத்து வைக்கிறேன்

காவலும் வதைக்கிறது
களவும் வலிக்கின்றது

என்னை வதைக்கும் இதயம் தேவை இல்லை
என்று தூக்கி எரிந்து விட்டேன்
இதயம் அற்றவள் என்று கள்வரும் போய்விட்டனர்

கள்வரும் இல்லை
களவும் இல்லை

இதயம் எங்கோ துடிக்கிறது !!!






 

Contrasts......

World provides us with so many contrasts today as it has never done before. Was witness to one such striking contrast recently at a famous hospital in Jubille Hills Hyderabad. A casual vitamin defieciency check opened up insight into many passing blessings in life that i overlooked or simply ignored.

The waiting Lawn for my general physician shared the same lobby as that of a Gynec (quite famous i assume considering the crowd). 'Gazing at people is my hobby almost' irrespective of age/gender/situation/style/ethnic ...I think it is my character more than hobby(LOL).

But it was disturbing on that day for me to watch through the many eyes that looked at us constantly and some trying not to look at us(contrasts!). Praveen moved out a little to pay some bills and the person next to me opened up the conversation..

Hi....how many months are you carrying?
(Me: WTF...i wanted to take a sword and cut that paunch/rice sack/belly that is so determined not to leave me...)

Already feeling lightheaded i answered politely, No mam, I'm here for a casual health check up.

She:   Oh! ok. So do you have kids?
I:       Yeah I do have one. (Thinking about that cute little energy booster/drainer (contrasts again :))
She:   Nice. How is it like to have a kid.
I:        hmm....we need to talk for atleast 3 days for me to answer that question. But yeah in short it is         splendid.
She:    I dont think I am prepared for it yet. you know i am going to THE USA next month and that has been the goal i am chasing all my life...
I:          Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! OK i get why you are here. All the best.

(I frowned not liking that conversation and blame my already Dizzi head...I cut that lady rudely turned to the other side of wall and closed my eye lids)

I opened my eyes when Praveen told we need to wait for the Doc. NP I can sleep in almost any posture..even standing in a bus :)

Another Old Woman:
Hi, Is it morning sickness? These things are common in first trimester.
Me: Too bored and weak to explain I am NOT NOT NOT pregnant, i gave a helpless smile.
Old Woman: We have been visiting this Gynec for last 5 years, she is very good. I am here with my daughter, we are waiting for her to bear a seed since last 5 years.

She goes on...these days people dont want girls, working women abort (the doc has educated her), after delivery they leave the kids in day care. God bestows them with children. But we are waiting for one since last 5 years and he has no mercy.

She goes on.. When you deliver you should stay with your child ma...you should nurse the baby for atleast 18 months. Girl or boy dont try to find, any kid is a boon. you should not stop with 1 go for 1 more, they need company.

My already Dizzy head was spinning toooooo fast now. I decided not to interrupt.

My turn came and i went to the physician...

Doctor: All results normal ma...I dont know of any disease from these results. May be Vitamin D and B12 can help...

Me: OMG i spent 50K man...

Doctor: Yes, you could be at stress or in depression. You should consider working less and relax.

Me: Thank you Doc. Thats worth a suggestion for 50K. (i was feeling terribly stressed and depressed over the 50K. My heart laughed at me: What? were you expecting some terrible thing all because you sepnt 50K)

I came out and crossed ways with the young IT proff: Very sad and in tears, Doc denied a clean up

I turned the corridor to see the old lady: No luck this time also ma...

I was feeling more stressed!!! CONTRASTS...God can reduce the contrasts a little...

Ameen...